This is going to be a reflective post so please bare with me.
We are currently 5 months into 2016 and although this is a running blog this blog is also a platform for me to share my voice. Be it in the running world or otherwise. So please allow me to ramble about some of my challenges.
I’ve alluded to my job hunting on here which hasn’t been going as I anticipated. I’ve also been sick twice in the last month. I normally never get sick and I even had to miss work which I dislike doing but sharing germs is not part of the Beaver Scout motto!
With all this I was trying to use running as an escape to clear my head and really focus on the positive things in my life. Because lately it has felt like the universe was really testing me
My only major brag is I’ve had more gym sessions this year even with my #buffbridesmaid project last year. A special shoutout to Nick Gill for all the hard work he has put in to lose weight and finish the sun run ! So I already feel stronger this year and I plan to gym even more and work on dead lifts….wish me luck!
I started out this year with strong hopes for the Sun Run but I wasn’t any faster . However i wasn’t the slowest I’ve ever been. In fact I just managed to have fun running the first 1k with Mr Tall and then meeting him at the end amongst the thousands of people running.
Leading up to BMO I seriously considered deferring to next year. But something inside of me said not to. I had a lot of conversations the next few days about how personal running is and doing your best. And of course most of all judgement. With sport there is competition. One of the things I love about running is how you can compete against yourself. The sport is really what you make it and I don’t think running is unique in that respect.
So why was I getting so hung up on how I didn’t train? It was my own fault so instead of dwelling on it..I worked on the mantra of finishing strong and injury free. As long as I could do that then I could focus on the next race and what that looks like for me. Yes I want to be faster of course but what is faster to me? I need to properly define these goals and form routine. At the end of the day this is my running journey and I have to remind myself of this when trying to overcome hurdles. Be it speed or otherwise.
With the word routine I noticed that was my intial challenge. I have a fair amount of free time with only one part time job no schooling and only some Scouting commitments. So I could have planned better..as someone or normally thrives on time management my mental health over job hunting seemed to take over my life. Something that I need to stop from happening this summer.
So BMO happened. I woke up early ran when I could. Walked when I had to. I admired how beautiful Vancouver is and had fun just watching the people around me. I was over 3 hours but I finished strong, upright, injury free…and best of all. NO SUNBURN! That in itself is worth so much! #teamporcelain. And I realised that I wasn’t the only one struggling I ended up chatting with a lot of people around me who also struggled this training cycle leading up to the race. So this was a nice reminder that we all wish we could do better but ultimately you can learn from each race and what you would do differently.
This summer isn’t just about speed. It’s about the mental side of running and breaking through that blerch . But don’t worry…I’ll beat it again in September.
Today I went for my 1st run post race and I felt so springy in my new shoes. I’m already trying to figure out regular run days and gym days and most of all just trying to enjoy the experience. Gotta sort out some 5ks and 10ks to build with but once that’s set out I should be ready by September.
I will run strong. I will run faster. Most of all I will run happy and beat the blerch that is my slow steady running.